Sooner or later I knew I'd have to use this blog as a pity party for moi. And tonight that is the deal. I have been freelancing for just over one year, telling everyone everything but no one has really been all that interested in my journey since leaving the corporate world. Everyone just seems to think that it's magic that we've been able to maintain our lifestyle (which includes lots of home entertaining, golf, dinners out, trips to visit relatives, shameless spending on children and keeping up our reputation as good dressers).
I remember my shrink from long ago told me that if I wanted people to feel empathy for me, I had to be more willing to show my vulnerable side. Does that mean because I don't whine and dwell on my insecurities verbally that I am not vulnerable? I guess so.
Anyway, it doesn't even matter what my new job is. The point is that no one, not my best friend, not my mother, my sister,or other people close to me who I've confided in, even said, "good luck on Monday". And it's not almost Wednesday and NO ONE has called to say, "how's it going?" "do you like it?" "What exactly are you doing?"
Sometimes I get really, really tired of always being the positive, happy camper that looks on the bright side of everything and never sees a black lining. I'm not ready to give up on my Pollyanna ways, but this week has been a real eye opener in terms of how aware my loved ones are of anything that really matters to me.
Since no one is asking, perhaps this unknown stranger to u shall ask - How's your day and what is your nature of work?Wonder it helps you. ;-)
Anyway here's another positive thinking :-
If we have a serious illness, we often see it in the most
negative way possible. If we have a head injury, we think to
ourselves, 'This is really the worst thing that could have
happened to me. If only it were a problem with my legs!"
Instead of telling ourselves that thousands of others are
suffering at least as much as we are, we feel sorry for ourselves as if we were the only person in the world to experience suffering.
And yes it is possible to adopt the reverse attitude and to
think, if our arms are paralysed, 'I can no longer use my arms,but at least my legs can still spport me;' And if it's our legs 'My legs will no longer carry me. but I can get around in a wheel chair and I can still write with my hands. ' Simple thought like these are enough to bring comfort.